Question:
from memory, i have never posted a forum topic especially about my situations online before and i never thought i would need to do it either. But conversely, yesterday i found myself in a position where i have no idea whats going on and my friends havent had a clue since i dont want to tell them everything. I guess here i can reall let out everything i want to say. So it might take some time to read...
I went into break dancing when i was really young and in any form of dancing ive done before, i've achieved outstanding outcomes, usually i stopped attending classes after i knew ive excelled. But break dancing was one that i kept going on and led me into more trouble. Like from 4 - 9 yrs old i did ballet and when i was in yr 3 my teacher said if i completed another two years of a teaching grade, i could teach as well. But for that reason i stopped and did break dancing. In yr 6 i attended an international competition and went all the way to china to practice my break dancing further. I won the first title (it was just an international company but u would understand if it was just people from that company attending the competition from all different countries). Because of the 3month tour and the overworking of my whole body to get that title, i soon got De Quervain Tenosynovitis which is the overuse of the tendons in my wrist causing alot of pain and stuff. During my break dancing times, i met a lot of guys a lot that werent decent and for that reason, i use to distrust guys a lot and never thought i would wanna get a bf untill highschool finished as they say highschool relationships dont work out. Theortically according to me, i wanted one bf and that to be my husband and one guy in a lifetime.
ive met a few decent guys before and there was one particular one which was like the perfect type but i never really wanted to like him cause i felt too posh (not sure whether it was jealousy =P i remember whereever i saw him, the all girl's heads would turn in his direction, no kids). We actually did become friends and he came to australia and did home school for me, and i guess we had a really close friendship for two years. He got a scholarship to canada ad he aske me if i wanted him to stay. Unsure about my feelings for him and relunctant to keep his companionship for the future he had before him, i told him i didnt need him. In the airport before he left, he asked me if i had any feelings for him and i said no. So after that i got no fone calls from him, and it was there i realised mayb i did have feelings for him (but at that time when i realised it as too late. I had his companionship for 2 yrs and i didnt know anyhting about love since i was young. When i did, it was too late). Like i was realy devastated that no one dared to mention his name in front of me for a whole year cause i'll just burst into tears and walk away like eveything reminded me of him when we were together eg just looking ata soft toy ina school could cause me a bit of unhappiness. After that i decided i couldnt go on and decided i had to change my ways. So i became someone really new, i didnt have too much of that poshness in me but still i didnt want a bf. But because ppl knew that guy and me had a possiblity for love,other guys made the effort to talk to me more. and even after that guy, i still continued to teach break dancing and attended important meetings, where i met new people. One who was the head's son like decided he culd take advantage of me and he started to follow me. Around about that time, i met another guy whom i decided to take on a relationship after a lonngg time of close friendship. We've been together for a while now and even when that other guy who liked me rturned from canada after two years and asked for my love again, i rejected him even wen this new guy had probably just started. Yeah after some guys knew about my relationship (could it be true??) some wanted us to break up. There was one who tried really hard, like kept trying to tell him that me and him had somthing going on and trying to like track me down. I was tellihg my bf to becareful cause of wad i heard from some people about what he could do to him. I carelessly, forgetting about my safety, found myself in a difficult situation some times.
And yesterday my bf had a bit of a worried i dont knowhow to say... srs convo to me? He was saying like in these past five months, my warnings and stuff were all wrong and stuff and like everything seemed perfectly normal to him in his area, whereas soemetimes he would hear some things going on about me. Made me feel like i was telling him a lie about this whole thing cause hes never seen these people nor heard of them. But before he was saying, no matter what we're get through this together. Like yesterday, i studied so much i needed to rest since its my last two years of highschool and im fully working my butt off hoping to achieve a UAi of 99+. So i went to the park and slept for a while and this guy came up to me and put his hands on my eyes. this is the convo
Him: Hey u've probably viewed me as an enemy so i dont want u to see me just in case at the sight of my appearancem you'll judge me again
Me: alright
Him: how are u going?
Me: tired from all the overwork
(silence)
Him: i never thought u would be as pretty as this in real life
Me: *scared and fulli creeped out* thanx. i dont know whther i should take that as a compliment
Him: wad do you do if i kissed u
Me: I dont have that much respect of people, but if u dont kiss me, i will respect u
Him: alright that'll take that offer
and after some awkward convo he was like close ur eyes when i leave and u can leave after that. And i respected his decision. And wheni todl my bf his reaciton was like now it makes me feel that they werent as scary as they were made out to be. and im like yeh i thought so too and he got all like JED SAID WE HAVE TO BECAREFUL!! now they finkur casual cause he got to touch ur face and stuff. He said next time u go on a jog, ask me and im like nah i dontwanna jog when i know they're around. And hes like well u can i'll come and if i see them mayb i should just get out my t4ennis racquet and bash them up. And im like that doesnt sound like my bfff.... dont do that cause if u bash them up they might hit u and even if u win, you'll still get hurt. and hes like i wont get hurt if i can see myself winning. arghh.. im like fully lost.... can i ask wad does he want from me?? this cryptic language is really confusing me. What does he want from me? does he want a break up from all this?? im really scared to lose him cause i do love him a lot.... but if this is wad he wants.. i'll respect his decision.. everything has just blinded me
arghh lol sorri for the long essay... golly... . but if u can give me some advice, please do so.... i need some help
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@_@ Im confuzzled lol
Anyway from what i understood, the one who wants to bash people with a racket just wants to protect you because he feels that he shouldve been there when that creepy guy talked to you. He most likely felt that way because he thought that you were traumatized or something X_X He's just saying that he wont get hurt blahblahblah to look tough XD *i tihnk*
As for the question about what he wants.. I wouldnt know but im positive that it isnt a break up _ (IMG:style_emoticons/default/dry.gif)
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uh...I'm confused too. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/unsure.gif) I don't really know which guy is which... =/
but from what I get, the guy who is ure bf isn't breaking up with you... and who is the guy who kissed you? (IMG:style_emoticons/default/ph34r.gif) or wanted to kiss you or whatever? oh man ... ok well, just try and becareful I guess going out and everything.
(btw, you live in australia? same here (IMG:style_emoticons/default/tongue.gif) )
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Your boyfriend doesn't want to breakup with you, all he's saying is that he wants to protect to from danger. He wanted to be there for you so he can protect you.
_ Maybe that guy that covered your eyes were ugly so he didn't want you to see him because you're going to reject his uglyness XD!! LOL...or he might be a sizzlin` hot mofo lol that just wants to hide his awesome looks. Sounds like a good fictional story!
