I Feel Stupid And Worthless

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so there this guy i used to date. he was my first bf.
in the beginning, i knew he got tired of girls easily. but i didnt care. i liked him too much to even think about his flaws.
towards the end of the relationship, i heard from a firend that he got tired of me, and that he wanted to break up with him.
i was hurt and i was confsued about what to do.
so i broke up with him.
he cried and i cried harder. he said he wanted to work it out but because he thought i wasnt willing too, he let me go.
for the next couple of days, i avoided him at school but i couldnt stop crying.
then the next few week, we became friends but i was hurting so much because i wanted to be mroe than that.
i regretted letting him go so easily.
i beat myself up for losing him because of stupid rumors.
then i heard from my friend that he liked someone else. all the clues were pointing to someone else but the harder i
thought about it, they were pointing to me.
finally, i found out it used to be me.
but about a week ago, i heard something else that broke my heart.
he liked another girl in his class. i was thinking about it for an enitre night, not able to sleep.
i was finally able to cry it ALL out. and my heart felt even emptier.
i thought i stopped liking him, and my heart felt really numb.
at school, i didnt look at him, or talk to him.
i was just really desperate to move on. i lied to myself that i stopped liking him, but each night after i found out
he liked someone else, i cried. over and over. the tears didnt stop.
today, we had a half day. me and my friends were planning on going to the city.
so we were supposed to meet up at the main entrance.
when i stepped out, i didnt see my friends but i saw him with the girl he liked.
i gave them a glance, and i saw him staring at me with a disappointed look. it killed me. cause ever since i started
to avoid him, he gave me this pissed, disappointed, sad look. i quickly turned away.
i really want to stop liking him. my heart is tired of breaking because of this one guy not really worth my tears.
but everytime im close to moving on and letting him go, something about him, and our memories give me reasons not to.
i miss him. so badly. and i lie to myself that hes worthless. but my heart knows esactly what im feeling.
why cant i move on? why do i always hurt just because he likes someone else?
i avoid him like crazy, but my heart wants to do the exact opposite.
i wasnt someone new but nobody is coming into my heart because he already filled it up.
i feel like my heart can never be healed. it'll be broken. and when i start to love someone else, ill love that person with a broken heart.
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i can't think of anything to say but, feel better.
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Go talk it out with him and explain everything. It's one hour of awkwardness vs. the rest of your life thinking about this. Just give it a go. It's better than crying every night right? Just talk to him, because it seems like he wants you to too. Even though he might like a new girl, he might just be putting up a front. Just explain things and talk to him. =)
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First of all you need closure.
Only when you get closure, can you be able to move on.
Don't get closure from him through AIM, MSN, email, phone....
Approach him in person and get that ish done.
Honestly, once you get closure, your heart starts healing.
Move on and you will find someone better.
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haha well. . .i think that if you became good friends with him, it would help you get over him. it sounds wierd but when me and my bf broke up, we stayed friends so it wasnt as heart breaking as it should have been. i mean, it soounds like the guy would like to still be friends with you since he gives you a sad look.
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I agree with the others. If you don't talk to him about it... you will live your life with the what if hanging over your head...
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i think you should talk to the guy. but if you really can't, talk to a friend.
once you let it all out to someone, you'll feel better.
just don't think of the shoulds, woulds, and coulds.
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I agree with the others. If you don't talk to him about it... you will live your life with the what if hanging over your head...
I coulnd't have said that better.
And about your friends... how come they said that to you :C poor girl..
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eh... I know how you feel. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/sad.gif) It sucks, and it hurts like mini cooper... and worst of all you can't do anything about it. All you can do is let time do its healing. Its been a couple of weeks fro me and I am still fighting. You just gotta learn to live without them. Be strong. Talk with him before you go on with your life though.
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ohmygoodness.
i hateit when its hard to move on.
i'm praying for you
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talk to him and let him know how you feel
he's gotta still feel SOMETHING for you.. right?
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i know how u feeel.
except.. my situations is kinda worse of.. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/sad.gif)
i would write about it..
but i dont wanna think about it right now
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i was finally able to cry it ALL out. and my heart felt even emptier.
i thought i stopped liking him, and my heart felt really numb.
at school, i didnt look at him, or talk to him.
i was just really desperate to move on. i lied to myself that i stopped liking him, but each night after i found out
he liked someone else, i cried. over and over. the tears didnt stop.
you know i felt the same way and now i still do..
i still can't seem to let the person like/love go at all.
i don't if it's because i have nothing better to do, or if it's because i'm just too deeply in love.
thing is he likes my really pretty smart friend. she's a all in one girl. she's smart really really smart, pretty, nice figure, goes to chruch, and lots more. i can see why he likes her. she even has good manners. i envy her, but people tell me i'm unique. sometimes, i'd just wish he'd notice me that i still like him.
when i found out about him liking my friend, aw man.. i stayed up all night thinking about it and crying about it.
i knew a lot of guys liked my friend, but i didn't expect him too. even his friend likes her. man. was i jealous!
but you know, i've hiding this from all my friends. this jealously inside of me and this love i still have towards him. i just want him to know. i feel your sorrow and pain. TTTㅁTT...
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First of all you need closure.
Only when you get closure, can you be able to move on.
this was exactly what i was thinking...
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sorry... but it's too late. i don't think right now is the right time to start over if there ever will be such a opportunity. but what you can do is stop ignoring him. either say sorry to him or transfer to another school. you're just looking bad.
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i agree with most.
talk to him.. x_x;;
it seems he likes you still? o_0
i think you will feel better if you talk to him.
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