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I honestly feel so horrible
when I was in 6th grade (2 years ago) there's was this boy that I seriously disliked.
I'll name him.. W
in 6th grade, I bullied him. Sort of? I told him to stop talking to me because I didn't want to hear him spout out random Japanese phrases he learned from anime, whatever. And I have low patience for such, as well as a short temper. I didn't want to do anything to him, but I have trouble controlling myself (years and years of getting bullied turned me angry D:) He'd keep doing random strange things to me in my friends until I snapped, and started kicking him and telling him to leave me alone if he tried to say anything to us. And he would constantly try to pick fights, too
i.e. W; you want to instigate a prodigious fight?! *puts up fists*
someone else; sure. Outside after school
W; NO! I'm against violence! Why is your mind so violent?!
(wtf?)
i.e.2.; W; *singsong voice* Ohhh _____!! (person goes to him) JUST KIDDING AHAHAHA YOU FELL FOR IT
(huh?)
etc., etc.
and in 7th grade, I tried not talking to him. I tried, but he's keep touching me (tap on shoulder) and throw his A test papers in my face. Then he'd constantly ask what I got, but only for something he passed in. My friend once forgot to do her homework and tried finishing in class, and he kept screaming she was doing homework, therefore getting her in trouble.
he claimed himself as the vocab master and the gum patrol as well (IMG:style_emoticons/default/crazy.gif)
now in 8th grade, I tried seeing things from his view, a bit. He once chipped a girl's back (Girl will be G) with a plastic flute case.
According to G, she stabbed him in the stomach with her flute, and he hit her in the back with his plastic case (note flute cases are dinky as anything, and he can barely carry his books without grunting (IMG:style_emoticons/default/mellow.gif) ) and chipped her spine (also note that G has the world's hardest bones or something -___-;;). Probably exaggerated, but, yeah. I talked to him (calmly, and reasonably) with another friend (H) and we convinced him hitting the girl wasn't the right thing to do, and that he should apologize. (H is probably the only person in the whole school he trusts)
he agreed that what he did was wrong, and asked us to help him apologize because G would probably hit him again out of fury and not accept his apology anyway.
We told G what W said, and she said I don't give a f`ck what he said. His apology is sh`t
That made me mad (IMG:style_emoticons/default/mellow.gif) So I yelled at her and told her any apology is not sh`t, especially if it does come from the heart, and that what she did wasn't that awesome either. If she does something to us, she doesn't apologize, she assumes that everything's okay and forces herself back on us, (us being me & some other friends.) even if we're a bit miffed. (She got a bit pissed at me afterwards)
After that, I tried seeing everything from his point of view. I mean, think about it. He barely has any friends, probably only about 3 at school (out of like 1000 people or so -___-), and one is also an outcast. Everyone else either makes fun of what he says or does, or totally ignores him. When he goes home, he talks to no one on the bus and his mom and dad are just.. there. His sister (that apparently no one knew existed.. I knew though ) is off at college. His sister is probably his support and reason to keep trying with society.
Then, on the 22nd (December), he wasn't at school (this was the last day until break). Throughout the years I knew him, he was always bragging about how he had perfect attendance for school his entire life. So I chuckled to myself thinking hah, he just broke his record
and today I found out he wasn't there because his sister died in a car accident, coming home from college
wtf? He tries so hard to fit in, and is always pushed away, and then his idol or something just dies, just when she's on her way back to spend the holidays with her family. The person that helped him decide between taking Spanish or French, and the person who gave him advice is gone.
He doesn't deserve this. He doesn't deserve me bullying him, or anyone else in the entire world bullying him. Just because he's a bit awkward and quirky at first glance doesn't mean anyone should take his mittens and play Monkey In The Middle with him. No one's allowed to lose their temper at him because they have anger management issues. And no one should accuse him of something he didn't do.
Yet those are all things he had to experience. And just when I notice what the h`ll I've been doing to him, it's already too late, he's been pushed so close to the cliff he might fall off, and someone close and dear to him disappeared
Why am I so stupid? Why can't I hold responsibility for what I do? And why does this kind of thing happen to people who don't deserve such things?
I really wish I was a better person and be more understanding. And I wish W has a better 2007 than 2006
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oh my... ,
if u feel so bad..
mayeb u should give the guy a call..
and see how he is doing and coping..
maybe u can actually befriend him and help him
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oh my... ,
if u feel so bad..
mayeb u should give the guy a call..
and see how he is doing and coping..
maybe u can actually befriend him and help him
well I used to have his number, but that was when G called me and gave me his number to prank call him. Then I deleted the Voice mail message (IMG:style_emoticons/default/mellow.gif)
right now we're in the process of almost becoming somewhat more friends and starting to talk without me getting pissed
but I'm afraid if I try to say something to him, he might take it the wrong way and get pissed ._.
and to be truthful, no matter how much he gets bullied, he never cries, and just holds it in. I don't know what he does at home, but to not get upset or even angry when he's hurt
it's just amazing
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Wow, he reminds me of this kid at school everyone gets annoyed of. He gets pushed around a lot too, and yeah. It's pretty sad, but then I think he's only like that because no one bothers to be nice to him and stuff. So, he gets like that, to get back at the world I'm guessing. I told one of my friends that he's only like that cause of that and they say well they wouldn't treat him like that, if he didn't act that way. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/mellow.gif) Back on subject, yes you should befriend him and help him through times like this. Don't bring up the situation unless he's the one to bring it up. Just try to make him laugh and smile more, so he doesn't go into depression. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) Hehe, random moment, but the kid at my school that's like that too, his name starts with a W.
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Wow, he reminds me of this kid at school everyone gets annoyed of. He gets pushed around a lot too, and yeah. It's pretty sad, but then I think he's only like that because no one bothers to be nice to him and stuff. So, he gets like that, to get back at the world I'm guessing. I told one of my friends that he's only like that cause of that and they say well they wouldn't treat him like that, if he didn't act that way. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/mellow.gif) Back on subject, yes you should befriend him and help him through times like this. Don't bring up the situation unless he's the one to bring it up. Just try to make him laugh and smile more, so he doesn't go into depression. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) Hehe, random moment, but the kid at my school that's like that too, his name starts with a W.
okay yeah. I guess befriending will be a big big new years resolution for 2007 then.
I think kids like these need more love
maybe not all from me... but a little from each person (IMG:style_emoticons/default/tongue.gif)
the person at my school... his name begins with a P (IMG:style_emoticons/default/tongue.gif)
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woah...if the guy keeps holding it in, one day he'll burst and go insane for sure! i guess what you can do now is just treat him better in the future.
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yeah like i read somewhere above (i think) be his friend and let him trust you so you know he's not holding it all in and maybe he's not so bad. he did seem pretty damn annoying but i guess you never what's really going on in his mind. he definitely needs a friend on his side.
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you should apologize and be his friend.
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omg~ i feel so bad for the kid :\
its good that you realized your mistake & is trying to befriend him ^^;;
i hope 2007 will be a good year for both of you :D
i'm kinda like you .. haha. except, you seem like a better person than me [:
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i have a friend who isn't annoying to me but to my close friend. he gets bullied and picked on alot too but it kinda stopped once my group accepted him. like all the others, I suggest you become his friend (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) friends can really change a person (either good or bad (IMG:style_emoticons/default/tongue.gif) )
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Oh my gosh.
First, I'd like to thank you for clicking my fic but yeah, that's not my point right now. xD
Anyways, that was a really touching story. And I'm glad you realized your mistakes and let's hope that W will have a better 2007. But he probably will because one person has changed their mind about him, even if it's out of sympathy.
-Tricia
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Aww..thats sad....if he comes to school, then tell him that you are soo sorry that what happen to his sister.
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=/ thast sad i fel bad for him.. i know someone similar to him no one liked him but now he's fit in and is much 'acceptable' compared to before .
youcan tereat him nice adn be nice ot him?
o_o over time he wil be better
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Say,you own him nothing don't you?
It's really nice of you thinking this way..
I don't think you have to like him or be his friend.
He doesn't need pity,even if his situation is really bad..
Just make sure that he knows you feel sorry for him.
Im sure he it would cheer him up,even if it's just a little bit..
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:i wow.. thats soo sad..
if i were you, i'd apologize for being such a jerk to him and see if he wants to be my friend. who knows in high school, he'll probably be different than he is now..
because when i was in middle school, id hang out with the punks/goths. look at them now, some are still them and some are part of the white people ahaha.. i dont really know what to call them because theres no popular crowd at my school. like theres a transition somewhere..
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wow! that's so sad! i agree with some of the ppl that one day he's gong to burst and go insane.... i also think u sould apologies to him and tell him that if he ever needs anything that u can help him with, just let him tell u. i think right now, he really do need some one to be there for him. ^^ u are nice.... i think i kno someone like that too but that was a long time ago... someone helped them and now, they are having a better life.
i hope that both of u and W have a better life in 2007! good luck to u both!
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You know the greatest part about this whole experience is that you realize something and you want to do something about it. I admire that most and your actions are forgiveable because you know that you did something wrong and that's really half the battle. I respect that your conscience is awake and functioning and it's up to you and how you decide to act that makes things better or worse. I believe that inaction is also being in the wrong in many situations but you choose to acknowledge what you did and feeling bad says much and what you do from here will say more.
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you're right he doesn't deserve it
you could be nicer to him? maybe even apologize
but don't make a big deal out of what happened
people were like that to me when i lost someone..and i wanted to punch them in the face
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im really glad that you realize that.
imagine... what if you have never realized it and still taunted him???
im proud of you.
i know that kind of person.
i saw them in high school.
but i always put myself in their shoes.
and i know how it feels to have people smirk at you
and think that they are better than you because they have more friends
or that they are better in any other way.
now that his sister is gone.
maybe you have to be that sister for him.
helo him decided on spanish or french.
be that friend for him.
think about it... you guys have obviously known eachother for.... 2+ years now.
you're not a stranger anymore to him. and him to you.
you have a big heart.
be his friend.
teach him to apologize like you did before.
teach him to be strong and have a big heart like you.
good luck.
youre a good friend.
you sound understanding and observent.
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umm sh!t happens? not to sound rude but he sounds like that annoying kid that nobody likes. this is probably cuz his parents are antisocial so he doesn't know how to converse with people properly so he thinks any attention is better than no attention.... he'll become better once he learns to be more normal
so his sister died, pretty big event but you shouldn't befriend him out of pity or something that's kinda digusting if u were W, it's like being told hey your sister died, i feel sorry for you, so NOW i'll be your friend ok?
and on the topic of being more social, take your friend in class who didn't do homework. he could've slipped her his homework instead of trying to get her busted. he'll get just as much social attention as telling the teacher but it would be in a positive manner etc. etc.
there's just some types of ppl nobody likes and you know what? they choose to be like that. maybe you could befriend him and give him social lessons?
