Question:
For a friend;
Matchmaker, matchmaker, make me a match.
Find me a find, catch me a catch.
They used to say that about me in junior high.
I was hoping it wouldn't be any different in high school.
So. There's a boy by the name of Charles.
He's 5'10, dark haired, toned, lean, and has an overwhelming amount of talent in the fields of taekwondo and piano. He's a nice – no, GREAT guy, but he's not the brightest tool in the shed, not the sharpest crayon in the box when it comes to academics. He means well, but does not always fully understand the complete dynamics of relationships.
There's this other guy by the name of Steven.
He's 5'7, if not 5'6.5. He's fit and he seems to be academically advanced. He's disarmingly nice, actually to the point where you're SURE that he has an ulterior motive. The thing is, he doesn't, which makes it all the more disarming. Steven's fun to be around, but his temper is a bit much to handle. He's very fast, and in more ways than one.
Kelsey, my best friend, is awesome. Really. I'd love to use a word I learned in SAT hagwon or AP Language and Composition, but that's what she is. She's actually quite awesome. Not only that, but she's petite and quite pretty. I'm not the only one who thinks so, as it turns out.
Beyond them is myself.
No, I'm not in love with them.
No, I'm not even in like with them.
I mean, I love and treat Charles like a little brother, though he's older than myself (side note: I'm not Korean, so they do not apply the oppa/unni rules to me).
My actual problem is that I betrayed my best friend's trust but she doesn't know it yet.
I'd almost feel like I was literally telling the world if I typed it how it happened. I'll put it in more or less abstract terms, if only to quell the strain on my nerves a bit longer.
Text message: I think I like...
Ring, ring, goes the tone.
Where are you?
With Charles and Steven.
Which one, 1 or 2?
Respectively?
Yes.
1.
Overwhelming joy ensued, only to be thrown into an abyss. Yes, an abyss, but this abyss had an end. I saw it. I knew it. I was familiar with it. The feeling of failure?
Charles had told me a few days before that he liked her.
His problem is that Steven had also told me the same thing.
The both of them: I think I like her... I can't stop thinking about her.
What to do, says the questioning child in her head.
I don't want to betray Steven so early into our friendship.
I don't want to turn my back on Charles, who is already a long and cherished friend.
What I really want is Charles and Kelsey to be together.
flashback
I've always felt like life was never completely fair for Charles, like there were opportunities for him to grasp and make his own, but there were too many outer situations that he had no control over holding him back.
I'm sure moving from Korea must have been hard for him;
I'm even more sure of how hard it was for him to change schools in the middle of high school.
It was when he began to go out with Monica that I felt like life was the most unfair to him. She was controlling, demanding, INSANE, ALMOST. She was so insecure about what they had that were he not to call her once, she'd feel like he didn't love her anymore.
What was worse was her sister, Sarah. A nightmare, the Park sisters were. A catastrophe ensued. Somehow, her sister managed to aim Charles's affection towards herself, causing a tumult in what should have been a calm relationship.
Relationships mess you up, we all know that. This one messed him up to the point where he was constantly drinking to forget, smoking packs to feel that short-lived, light-headed escape. To have to go to that messes you up in the head AND the body.
Korean guys seem to have this thing where they'll stay with a girl even if they don't like her. Like it's an obligation to be with her because she's trying so hard. Not many of them realize that it's unfair to her, thinking I hope he still loves me. I hope he still loves me, when there's nothing left. Not on his side, at least.
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However, that's all in the past. He ended his relationship with her soon after he realized that there truly was nothing left. You can experience love with someone, but forcing that same love that no longer exists would be wrong.
Steven. For the longest time, all I knew about him was that he was a friend of a friend. Then I met him. He's funny. Said something I can't forget.
A friend of mine was complaining about how people give her the oddest nicknames, like Blueberry and Mermaid. To this, he replied:
It's okay. People call me SE7EN.
He's funny. Good to be around.
flashback
I need your help. Counsel me?
Yeah. Okay. What is it?
Is it okay to like two people at the same time?
... Sure?
You know who the first girl is.
Yes. Sarah Park. Monica's sister. Your girlfriend. So who's the second?
She's in the pool hall.
end
The girl in the pool hall was Kelsey. Unbeknownst to her was the fact that both guys in our party of four liked her. But I knew. Oh, how I knew. The burden of a thousand burdens is how it felt.
Guys are friends. Guys love each other. Really.
But when guys compromise a strong friendship for a girl,
that's when everything stops,
Who does that, says the rational voice in her head.
I guess Steven does. But one can't blame him; the only thing that could come between close friendships is a boy or girl.
I wanted you to know the past so maybe you could understand this situation.
Now I need you to know the present.
I was not supposed to tell Charles. I was not supposed to tell Charles that, respectively, he was 1. I did. Only hours after I had been told this, I told Charles. I wasn't supposed to. But I told him.
How I wished this was the end. Little did I know how guilty I would feel for merely saying the words, She likes you, too.
Years of steady dedication has finally allowed me to gain the trust of Kelsey,
and I readily threw it away like that.
Was I wrong? No. I know I was wrong.
Were my intentions correct? Was it completely wrong of me to tell him this?
I'm looking out for her best interests. I told myself this. I tell myself this.
Would she forgive me were she ever to find out?
If you took the time to read this, thank you. But please. If you're here, please help me. Please, stay with me through this. Thank you for your time and patience.
Answer:
I have my fair share of matchmaker drama...I say it's not worth. If you think someone look cute or prefect together, let it be. If they think so they can do something about it.
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Wow. Match making? That's a tough job, especially if the couple don't turn out. Maybe you should let your friend know that you've told Charles before she finds out from a 3rd person instead. With time, you might be able to gain her trust back... and it's better coming from you anyhow.
With Steven and Charles however, you should just let Kelsey do the picking. Don't come between the 3 and just let them work things out. It would be horrible to think that your friendships with each of them are at risk over something entirely their business.
I'm sorry I'm not so much of a help. I hope things sort out in time and you feel better soon (IMG:style_emoticons/default/happy.gif) .
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lol i think you need to chill out
let them think for themselves
it seems like you've interfered too much
but you just wanted to help
but you should back down now
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hahaha this is so crazy i keep on reading it
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erh.. wish u didnt write like that...
but.. itz up to Charles and Steven to try and get her...
and it seems Kelsey likes Charles..
so in the end.. u know what wil happen..
just dont interfere..
let them work it out themselves...
so they wont have u to blame in the end..
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the way you wrote felt like something that came out of a book
but my advice would be to not interfere as mentioned before
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Haha~
Just to make this clear, a friend wanted me to post this for her.
So I did not write this.
And yes, I did tell her it was very much like a fanfic. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/ohmy.gif)
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real matchmaking is dogbreeding. but you know nothing of that just as you know nothing about hybrid vigor or how the marriage of first cousins of strong stock has been used for breeding children of superior genes.
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^---
no, i guess this person wouldn't ._.;;;
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marriage has never been for romantic love until recently in human society.
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^--- i don't know what this has anything to do with this thread.
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Haha~
Just to make this clear, a friend wanted me to post this for her.
So I did not write this.
And yes, I did tell her it was very much like a fanfic. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/ohmy.gif)
(IMG:style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif) thats exactly what I was thinking...
I can understand the burden your friend feels knowing both sides of the story (that they both like each other) but I dont think she should have told Charles. But we won't know exactly if it was a mistake or not until/if they get together and how long they last together.
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matchmaking is playing with peoples feelings.. their lives. It seems liek your friend is incapable of doing so effectively considering how she's freaking out over it.
In my opinion she is wrong to tell.
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I think you should just step aside and let Kelsey figure out what to do on her own. Just listen to whatever all of them have to say but dont say anything in return. Say something like, Oh yeah...cool. I don't know, I barely talk about it with her. That way the guys would probably figure that they can't get any more information out of you and you won't have to let a few words slip.
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i`m dizzy (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wacko.gif)
well what`s done is done just let her decide from now on and to be sage just stand on the sidelines unless your friend asks for your help
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Don't worry, I completely understand your situation. I'm glad you know that you shouldn't have told, and by reading your post, it's more than obvious that you're VERY sorry. I believe it best for you to come clean w/ Kelsey about everything you just wrote about in your post. Pour your heart out, and tell her how sorry you feel. If she forgives you, then she forgives you; if she doesn't, she doesn't. There's not much you can do there, and yes, it DOES suck, a lot, but hey, at least you came clean and did what was right. I feel that the longer you keep this from her, the more guilty you'll be of betraying her. I can tell by your writing that you have pure intention, and never meant to betray anyone's trust. You've shown that through your typed words, now show that through your spoken words.
Best of luck to you33
